I’ve certainly have been slacking lately, between loss of sleep and writing. I do admit that my favorite time to write is normally in the wee hours between 3 and 4 a.m. hence the title of my blogspot here on WordPress. 

But I’ve been passing the time on Reddit, and if possible sleeping even less. That makes for very groggy thoughts and not conducive to writing. Two things are contributing to my exhaustion, my inconsiderate neighbors upstairs, and my cohorts in insomnia Malley and Jackman. It is not their fault, they love to snuggle, oh lets be realistic..they want attention and food and not necessarily in that order. One surreptitious movement by me, sends them both in to survey the land. They know when they get fed, I try to keep them to a schedule…9 a.m. is breakfast when I feed them, whenever we get home from work is Toddy’s job to feed them. We figure if we both feed them, they can’t tag team us with adorable belly rolls and/or who can stand on top of their humans to make them move first.

But where I can only sleep in a couple of hour shifts, Toddy is a power sleeper. I let him sleep in til 2:30 in the afternoon yesterday and I still got questioned as to why I woke him up. I came up with a few reasons, but the reality was IT’S 2:30 IN THE AFTERNOON GET YOUR ASS UP! He did get up, and promptly laid down to watch T.V. where he stayed until we went to dinner and the movies. Then back to bed. He did get some exercise by jumping out of the car at an intersection to go to the gas station to buy cigarettes.  I have been proud of him he wanted to quit smoking, I was satisfied he went to e-cigs. But he has been working on the weekend with a friend, and they both thought I wouldn’t find out that he was smoking again. Really? I know they work hard, but that smoke smell rising from your clothing isn’t from your labors. But I don’t say anything ( ok maybe once) but people are going to do what they want to do, regardless of the future consequences. 

Case in point, I stopped writing and lost myself in gaming for the last 4 years. My blog became sporadic at best and my wallet leaner as “free to play” games only means it doesn’t cost to login. I’ve reconciled the money spent as the cost of dating as that is where Toddy and I did meet. Not to mention a five hour time difference, and losing sleep trying to protect your virtual troops and running an alliance..needless to say my skill at staying awake for long stretches of time came in handy. 

But what I struggle with now as I hit middle age (well if I live to be 100) is as I get older am I really losing more sleep or becoming like the blue hairs who don’t sleep at all? Will I begin wanting to catch an early bird special at 4 pm? Marrying a younger man, didn’t help by throwing me into cougar status, even though that was never part of it. I look the same age as him, or maybe younger but I don’t chalk that up to sleeping. I keep reading articles about the number of hours of sleep you need to extend your life. But its a catch 22 as I’m an avid reader and will read into the wee hours, while I’m not busy sleeping. 

There really is no hope for it. I could exercise, I get tired just thinking about that. Being sleep deprived, over stressed from work, I know exercise would do me good, but I’m mentally and physically exhausted. Back to the catch 22. I think my only hope at this point is to take up yoga and my mantra can be..sleep is for slackers..ohmmmmmm.